I'm on a painful rollercoaster of emotional illness and I'm in urgent need of healing and support. I have painful crying jags, which I know is healthy, but I'm very vulnerable to depression. I'm a very stressed Mama caregiver for my special needs autistic little boy, which is causing stress to my marriage, and I drink chamomile tea, I take St. John's Wort, I toke cannabis, laugh as much as I can, I meditate, do yoga, Tai Chi, enjoy fresh clean air and warm healing sun and all these wonderful healing remedies do help, but I still feel like I'm falling apart and the worst part is, while I'm very grateful to share my life with my loving caring wonderful husband, I feel very isolated with no local in real life support from Kindred Spirit Mamas and having a few close loving sister Mama friends would help a lot. I explained in the childbirth child rearing years forum. I'm also delving into the 12 Steps for Recovery. I also enjoy pure organic essential oils for healing lovely aromatherapy and that helps a lot, too. I'm open to other healing loving suggestions, thank you.