2011 is not my year. It started out brightly enough, my husband and i re-dedicated ourselves to our marriage and decided to focus on TTC (we'd been "not preventing" for a few months) and we quickly became pregnant... a few short weeks later I miscarried, but a mere 2 months later I was pregnant again!!! Then my hubby had to leave his job, there was an issue with drugs at the workplace and some other drama, but we didnt think it would be difficult for him to find work. Its now august and...we have nothing. nothing. not a job offer on the horizon. we've used every penny to our names and sold off nearly every single item of any value. We will very soon have no where to live. I've called every single charity in our city, and no one will help us because we have no income. We were denied welfare cash assistance, and although we get food stamps they havent come in this month, they are a week late and I'm not even allowed to call about it again until tomorrow. I'm 24 weeks pregnant, i have a 4 year old and a hubby who has been busting his butt trying to move our things into storage before we are homeless- we're hungry! My mom recently put a bunch of baby stuff on layaway for us, which I majorly appreciate- but we have no where to live. She has my nephews dad living in her spare room, so there is no room there. My brother-in-law graciously lent us the money to get a storage unit so we dont lose everything we own, but I dont know how we'll pay the bill next month. We are on a waiting list for income-based apartment, I called about 3 weeks after being told "2 months" and was told ANOTHER 2 months from that date, so really we have no idea when that will come thru. My father-in-law was going to let us sleep in his unfinished basement, but it has wolf spiders (poisonous) and when we took our food over there it all got eaten by my BIL and his kids(hence why we have none now). My mother-in-law can let us stay in her efficiency for 2 weeks, but what we'll do after that I just dont know. The stress is overwhelming. My beautiful little girl is even showing signs of distress which is breaking my heart, I cant reassure her because I just dont know whats going to happen.... I dont know why I'm writing this, i guess just to vent. I feel so lost and terribly afraid, I dont want to lose my kids because we're homeless. I dont know what to do. We have gotten some wonderful help, the layaway, the money for storage, but we are still so desperatly in need. My life wasnt supposed to be like this... I feel like the worlds worst mother
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on Thu Aug 18, 2011 9:48 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Faith, Trust & Pixie Dust!!!