So somewhere in my hospital recovery, I asked Dr D to EXPLAIN to me exactly what he did. He lit up and went into TEACHER mode. Yes, the adhesions were TOUGH. Had everything knitted together, but he took on the dangerous tedium of ever so carefully REMOVING them. He repaired the FOUR fistulas on my small intestine (I THINK they were all on the SMALL bowel) Dr Cusati, our liverwizard, carefully removed 20% of my liver with the one, 1" marble sized TUMOR in it, nice and clean. When they take a section of your liver, they TIE OFF all the blood and bile vessels and cauterize the surface. If what I'm reading is correct, it should all regenerate in a mere EIGHT WEEKS. That's AMAZING.
It was Stella who as in the most trouble. Both surgeons think there never WAS a hernia. (what????? I wore that blasted hernia belt for TEN MONTHS for what????) What was bulging around her was this KNOT of adhesions, inflammation and a chronic infection. No WONDER I felt so horrible most of this past year. EVERYthing was removed, I was doused with abx, and I'm all reconnected.
During one of his check-in's, one week after the surgery, I was starting to say something like "I can't wait to......" when Dr D kind of cocked his head and noted: "You realize you're a WHOLE NEW PERSON. It's OVER. The fistulas are GONE, the cancer is GONE, and Stella is GONE. It's OVER." That scene STILL tears me up. It's TRUE. I FEEL like a whole new person. It was not possible for me to get well this entire past year. Now I can. That's SO huge, it doesn't fit on the keyboard.
The tumor in my liver had totally CLEAN edges. They didn't biopsy it first and actually I'm glad. You cut into a malignant tumor to find out IF it's malignant and you risk SPREADING the cancer. Oddly enough, modified citrus pectin taken 3 days before and 3 days after cancer surgery can surround escaped cancer cells and keep them from 'taking root' elsewhere. I only took it a couple of days before and couldn't THINK of getting it down afterwards, but once I heard they didn't do the biopsy, I was good. They did an ultrasound of my liver and there's NOTHING there to be concerned about. As Dr D pronounced, 'now we let nature take its course'. No chemo, no radiation. I'll work with my ND oncologist to make sure this NEVER happens again.
Sure, the HARD part of this is getting the pipes working again and figuring out how to eat. (on HOSPITAL FOOD, that was a trip). What FIRST comes through is utterly BLACK liquid and there's NO getting to the bathroom in time, especially if you have to unplug and drag an IV pole with you. Three times that night they had to clean the floor. Then it goes green and burns like all hell. Good thing I had my Beaudroux's Butt Paste with me from trying to protect the Sewer Rat skin.
Both surgeons strongly suggested I take Immodium to control the diarrhea until I can catch up with myself. I protested UNTIL I UNDERSTOOD the mechanics of all this and saw MY herbal allies not TOUCHING it. Fact is, an intestinal system that has NOT been functioning anything like normally for OVER A YEAR is going to have a tough time figuring out how to DO the unbelievable things intestines DO. To ally with the Immodium (which slows the peristalsis) AT THIS TIME was actually the RIGHT thing to do. I felt queasy most of that day until the Hallelujah Chorus started in on Sunday morning and I wanted to go running up and down the halls announcing "I POOPED! I POOPED!!!!!". BELIEVE me, I shall NEVER take that little function for granted EVER AGAIN.
Today I'm TWO weeks past the surgery, still eating very carefully and only small amounts at a time. I'm plagued with pretty fierce gas pains in the mornings after breakfast. I'm doing a lot of Slippery Elm with raw honey. Using yogurt smoothies to sneak in protein powders and probiotics and blackberry juice. I'm kind of sleeping regularly from 9:30pm straight through to 6:30am AND napping during the day. I've had one appt that kept me on my feet too long and THEN pushed through to get some groceries with my HomeCareHelper and was definitely in that state of "You'll know" when I got home and went straight to bed. I see Dr D for a follow up next Tuesday, and I'll see my ND as soon as she goes through ALL the records from the hospital. We'll work on getting some weight back on me and super nourishment for healing really well.
Although, yes, I feel like I've gotten my 'life back', I don't have much sense of wanting to GO BACK to much. I'm excited as can be to GO ONNNNNNN.
By chance on Facebook last weekend, I came upon a YouTube vid that just stopped me in my tracks. I watched it over and over. It LOOKS how all this FELT. And while for the first few minutes my MommieChops were zinging for the surfers, before long I was literally 'swept up' with what I was seeing, watching their surrender to the wave's MAGNIFICENCE, and realizing that I feel like I just popped up on the other side. I MADE it, and I wll NEVER be the same.http://video.mpora.com/watch/5Pgs2slxu/
It's going to take me MONTHS to untangle all the gifts in this astonishing journey. I get swamped with Gratitude Attacks just all the time. I'm finding the Healing Process to be absolutely fascinating because now it's finally POSSIBLE to heal. I listen very carefully to what my body's ready to eat and when it gets weary and when it's ready to get up and MOVE. I want to do this WELL.
Such armloads of blessings and heartwaves and gratitude to EVERYone who contributed to helping the Way to Open for this story to have a Happy Beginning.
love to ALL of you,